Well Lord Here I am again begging You to help me. Haven't even really started the day yet and already have bitterness and hate in my heart. Why do I have to get my feelings hurt over the least little things these days? I seems to not be able to take anything. Dealing with people is very hard. I find myself wanting to "take my ball and go home." I have always been a "people person" yet all I want to do is stay by myself. I really don't want to even talk to or with people. It seems as if no one knows where I am coming from and understands me. They find everything wrong with what I do or say. I can't seem to do anything right to please anyone. I only understand what I do and no one else does. I am starting to feel like most of the mental patients I use to see at the mental hospital.
I refuse to take medication to correct this! Britney keeps saying, "you need to go see the doctor and get some medication." NO! Been there and done that and I hate that. I have medication and it makes me feel crazy and I refuse to take it anymore! I am going back to see the doctor this morning and telling him that I am not going to take that crazy mess. Besides I am not gaining the weight that has come with it. :o)
Yes I am down right mad this morning. I shared a moment on FB that happened at my Show on Saturday and it got X'd by the administrator due to "different and multiple personalities." Come on people...grow up. Get a freaking life and get over yourselves. Well this is my BLOG and I can write what I flipping want to on here so I can share what happened and I am the administrator of my life and BLOG.
I was sharing the different themes and kinds of Shows that the ladies could have with a group of very devout Christian ladies Saturday during a Jewelry Show. Example I told them they could have a Java and Jewels Show, Pajamas and Pearls, Chocolate and Charms, etc. This little lady who is a very kind and devout Christian said with a huge smile...."we can have a Vaseline and Valentine's Party." She died out laughing. We all about died. Then she said, "or better yet we could have a Viagra and Valentine's" I told her she would have to find another Jeweler to hold that Show. :o) We all got a good laugh. But she continued with, "We could have a Chippendale's and Charms." She said I would have to write on the invitations for them to bring dollar bills. We laughed so hard. These little ladies loved it. They kept bringing up the Chippendale's all afternoon. You just never know where your Show is going to go. :o) Needless to say we all had a good time and it was a very successful Show! These ladies are wonderful ladies! I love them all and I am glad I have met them and they are in my life!
I have met so many wonderful people due to my business! I couldn't make it without my Christian friends! I couldn't make it without my Lord and Savior! He is having to reign me in this morning and take away bitterness and hatefulness! I am full of it! My chest hurts I have so much resentfulness. I HAVE to get over some of this carrying my heart on my sleeve. I think I just am missing my number one fan so much *MY DADDY* !!!!! As Mother reminded me the other day I did no wrong in my daddy's eyes. He loved me unconditionally. He would tell me things to correct but most of the time he just loved me for me.
Well on to my THANKFUL List so I can start my day right!
1. My New Jeweler Rebecca Clanton!!!! She is a doll!
2. My Rebecca Ann! She is also a doll!!!
3. My hubby, Mel. He is my MAN!
4. My Mother!!! My BEST Friend!
5. Rest in a wonderful, nice, warm home!
6. A safe trip home last night.
7. D and Ru!
8. Jen. I needed her friendship last night and her kind understanding.
9. Jewels and Susie (God's gifts of sunshine!)
10. Salvation, Patience with me, Understanding, Mercy, and Grace!
Thank you Lord for all the luxuries of this material life YOU have provided for me!
Forgive me of my sins and help me to cope today!
In Jesus holy name,
Amen
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